For some reason I forgot that I had this bad boy...thought I'd deleted it. Sort of a nice little discovery, considering I've been having some serious writer's block when it comes to my physical diary. Being able to type things out, and come back to it easily when I think of something, has me far more motivated to put things into writing.
A lot has changed since last year. I sort of fell off the healthy wagon. Well, let me correct that...I haven't been to the gym in a few months, and I'm not as strict as I used to be on my diet BUT I still watch what I eat for the most part, and I exercise here and there. I'm definitely going to get back on track soon though, not liking that I've gained back all the weight that I'd lost, and I don't have as toned a body as I was getting. Plus the man will be home soon, so I need to be looking good. lol
The man, yep you read that right, I have a new man in my life. We were high school sweethearts, dated off & on for the better part of 3 years in high school. Split at the end basically b/c he was going into the Army (Germany) and I was going to college here in So Cal. That's not how it seemed at the time, but that's what I realized as an adult (and after talking w/him more now). Well last year, a few months after Nick and I broke up, he messaged me on Facebook. It started off with innocent flirting, and catching up with each other (after all, it had been 7 years since we'd really talked). He was deployed to Afghanistan in the Army though, and we decided to hang out when he came home on leave last November. I was VERY nervous, because I wasn't sure what all our talking and flirting had meant. I had tried the dating world w/o much luck, and was hoping maybe something would come of our talking/flirting. I remember when he came to my house...it was such a trip to see him all grown up after all this time. It was nice though, seeing him get out of the truck and start walking toward me. I wasn't sure if we should hug hello, or what. I remember giving him a hug and him holding on a little longer than I expected...he remembers me giving him a bigger hug than he thought I was going to. lol Anyway, we hung out that night and staid up SUPER late talking, and looking at pictures from high school up until more recently. Sort of catching up all the way. We kept getting closer and closer and eventually we wound up kissing, which led to...pretty much not leaving my room for the next 12 hours! hehe We went and got something to eat, saw a movie, went to the Lamp and then the Rustic. He got to hear me sing, and loved it. It was an amazing 24 hours! As if no time had passed between us, and the emotions were just the same (but stronger). We hung out off and on over the next few days, spending a decent amount of time together that following weekend...which was his last one in Cali. I remember when he left me that Monday morning...I did my best not to cry in front of him, but shed a few tears as I drove away. It was hard saying goodbye again, but this time to my boyfriend who was going back overseas.
We've spent the last 5 months really getting to know each other better, and dealing with a few hiccups. But all in all it's been the best 5 months of my life. He told me he loved me on New Year's eve...it was the best 3 words I've ever heard. And when he told me how one day he wants to marry me, well...the thought still leaves me speechless. I am so insanely happy with how things turned out. I pinch myself from time to time because I can't believe it's all real. But it is...my fantasy truly became a reality!
He will be home in the states on Saturday, I'll go see him in TN about a month later, and then he'll be out of the Army right before my b-day (Sept 19th). That's when we'll truly be able to start planning our life together. He still needs to go to flight school, but at least he'll be home and we can spend time with each other. I can't wait to be able to be in his arms pretty much any time I feel like it! :o)
OK, I'm yammering on like a love struck fool. Other things going on in my life: I took up snowboarding this past winter and LOVE IT!! Also, I started working on my Master's Degree in Public Administration with University of Phoenix this past January, and am currently living w/my BFF in La Quinta. I've weeded a few more people out of my life, and am exceptionally happy with those few close friends I have. I'm working on cleaning up my credit and paying things off...which is going well. I'm still broke, but bills are paid in surplus! I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to get back into an exercise routine, but I'm working on something b/c I want to get back into shape and loose some weight again.
That's about all for me for now! Remember, we are only limited by what we tell ourselves we are capable of! ~Jenna
